Three Fires Pow Wow, 6-12-04
intro to why i dared
My original first action in this tour began at a Pow Wow near Portland, Oregon
in 2000 (when i first began creating ceremonial masques and regalia with
spiritual path intentions--unlike previously, which were more experimental and
spontaneous). And i saw my desired interaction at the Three Fires Pow Wow as a
potentially *very powerful* compliment to the origins of these x-country
actions. After all, they are not only plunges into the Unknown/my Fear in a
large way, and very spiritually powerful in an individual basis, but brought
forth an enhancing of care and a desire for solidarity across all alleged
differences. To add, as both Ward Churchill and Trudell John have been pointing
out, we *ARE ALL* descendants of indigenous cultures (European included)! And
part of my task, i see, is to promote a return to trusting the general excellent
potential of imaginations created beyond the pale of so-called "civilization"
and their perpetual war/alienation model so seemingly inherent within that
entire value system.
So i began seeing myself as an informal "ambassador" of sorts, representing
galaxies of my desires and dreams, and wanting to get together with others
daring their individuality, and collaborate towards beautiful excellence!
Thus i saw/see my going into the realms of Pow Wows (and other semi-autonomous
zones) as quite appropriate, even tho i am no "American Indian" (but only a Euro
mutt, as far as i know); bringing the depth of my experience and reflections
into spaces which *could use* authentic, dared depth from other angles than
usually experienced---and perhaps evolving *my own* largely negative beliefs
about the apparent superficiality of publicly-held pow wows and the politricks
that seem to plague them (as with so many independent-seeking communities).
So where i'd only gone superficially in the original pow wow--which i'd been
invited to by a native (daring only into one main depth with an elder lady who
spoke of my being "Trickster", and retreating in fear by her warning, preferring
supposedly more-safe spaces in non-Indian areas), i dared after all my
experiences across the country and in diverse communities, to go fully into my
fear of this Unknown.
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regalia
This time i changed my regalia to a new intensity; i put my black n'white
striped pants on upside-down for a shirt (making a hole in the crotch of
course), added a roughly-cut but be-jeweled jacket i'd gotten for 25cents
(attaching feathers i'd come upon in my travels) and wore, for the first time
since IL actions, my dayglo-colored jacket upside-down for pants; and on one
shoe i tied one of a pair of the green frog slippers i dumpstered way back. The
ideah of that last one was to off-set the scary-looking "gator" masque (a friend
says it looks that way to him) together with the silly frog slipper (and
hopefully mess with the proclivity of folks--indigenous and not--to get stuck in
FEAR-orientation assumptions of what i appear as and "am doing").
The action
Okay, so i biked maybe 7 miles to the corner of Leonard and Monroe NE, locked
the bike up, and walked 2-3 miles from there to Riverside Park where the Three
Fires Pow Wow was being held. Along the way, passed a Boy Scout troop out for a
hike, found a birdfeather that i stuck in to a bandaid on my left index finger,
interacted with a guy in a car who resembled a burly off-duty cop (and seemed
intent on provoking my emotion, but failed), reflected increasing audible
response from passerby (whoops and joyful cries) as i neared the pow wow grounds
which was already teeming with activity.
Well, when i first wrote about this, i chose to "write without words" except to
send words that my 59-yr-old Inuit mentor first shared with me back in the late
'80s: "i thank yOu (in many languages)". This was meant as a way of respecting,
and not allowing the police state and its minions entrance into what i call a
sacred interaction...but now i wonder...because my *intent* is to demystify and
inspire imagination potential beyond the same old ghettos of traditional leftism
and anarchy, and promo that we all get together in one basic *resistance of
consciousness*.
sobriety march
Had earliest wanted to accompany the march for sobriety to see how they were
speaking of the issue, but didn't make it due to two things:
One, my mixed feelings about how social services propagandists would "probably"
be controlling things completely, and two, didn't wake up after partyin until at
least 4AM the previous night (heh).
By the way, while i see the heavy problems/challenges with drinking liquor/beer
in native and other communities, as with others, i also see how internalized
value assumptions and politics hinders any serious solving of this (like so much
else).
i could go on at length about this, but i'll save you that for now, and speak
only a bit:
If people *WERE ENCOURAGED TO RITUALLY ARTICULATE* drinking and being drunk in a
sacred manner, together with *believing in themselves* enough,
drinking/drunkenness could become a ceremonial tool **in a similar way that
peyote and tobacco is used!**
So i myself am standing with a grey area, not wanting to get smothered by the
usual manipulations of those subordinating themselves to BIA/Leftist-style
"reforms" and such politricks, nor wanting to demonize people's natural
inclination to want to escape the dumbing down reality of what living in this
"reality" has become for so many. Anyway, i see eye to eye with Sioux leader,
TrudellJohn, where he says basically (in a video i saw) that drunken indians
were the only ones who crucially REFUSED to conform to the superficial reform
games of BIA-style "integration" strategies, and thus were a *crucial* group to
modern efforts of independent defenses...
entrance
Entered into a balking silence. Wasn't at all sure how i'd be received, but
didn't expect what i got. i was doing, i claim, an angle on *spiritual nudity*
and didn't need to think about "what might happen" at length.
first champion
Almost immediately, a native guy (i'll call a champion) who'd been just parking
his bible-quote-decorated pickup truck when i first walked in through a parking
lot, invited me to come with him and go back and let him share some of his bible
quotes from the truck ... i intuited that he wanted to try to talk to the s t r
a n g e intruder via a language that i might be talked to with, thus acting as
one more excellent watcher for the community.
Then a van pulls up and a mainstream-style-dressed older lady (in 50s?) gets out
and asks me if i'm "trying to satirize" or otherwise defame what she called her
people.
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Note: when composing this article the first time around, the public computer i
was using "somehow" ceased up and didn't allow me to post this at any IMC sites.
I had to start all over again (because I didn't have a disk with me). I've
seldom seen this type of thing in my x-country travels, and can only
figure--based on the games that the political police have a record of playing
against systematic challengers (3)--that someone was at work to block this info
from reaching others. Luckily, I persisted in getting the library staff to
extend my day's allotment and *was* able to post it to two IMCs, but still not
the Michigan IMC...until now (hopefully).
notes:
(1) There are *no* alternative book/magazine/zine stores in Grand Rapids and
area. There is a recent try at starting some kind of local IMC project, but I
missed that conference. Public access to the Internet is more severely
controlled than any place in the country i've seen. None of GR's colleges allow
free access (a Grand Valley State College employee told me that while the
college is publicly funded, its internet services are not, thus no access to the
public; and GRCC allows access for $10 a semester after and ID check and much
personal info gathering; Davenport and the other two private colleges are all
"password protected" which is a change apparently after 9-11). Lack of alloted
time for my one-hour use of public computers at the main library downtown
prohibited me from going into more detail on these texts until I left the GR
area (i don't own a computer myself, yet), and then any website deemed "sexual"
is rigidly filtered from even adult viewing (i.e. reading an alternative gay
magazine i like called www.guidemag.com ).
(2) i highly recommend don Miguel Ruiz's _The Four Agreements_ and _The Mastery
of Love_.
(3) all serious challengers of the status quo would do well to educate
themselves on the history of once-illegal, now legal, official covert action in
order to take steps to avoid it as best they can, and deal more up front with
"paranoia". See Brian Glick's book _War At Home_ (South End Press, Boston, 1990)
for its exceptional run-down on the history and "what we can do about" this kind
of warfare.